It is August 16, 2020, 5:13am and I am in Charleston laying in bed at this moment. It’s only right that I take the time to write. Most times my thoughts are better thought out at night because of how 𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑐𝑒𝑓𝑢𝑙 it is at this time. I often think about my life and where it is going or if it is going anywhere. Many people say they’re proud of me, other folks say that I’m 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔. But which is it, or is it both, or neither? Every trial in my life has left a mark, rather it be a painful mark or a healing mark. Mainly painful marks that I am still healing from. I can only take it a day at a time and move forward.
Sometimes I want to rush time so that I can find my purpose and get to the end. But God only wants me to take a 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑. Often times I want to take plenty of steps forward so that I can reach my destination. But imagine walking, it’s easier to take one step at a time rather than taking more than one step at a time and causing yourself to fumble or trip. If we take the time to 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑂𝑁𝐿𝑌 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒, we will reach our destination on time. It may not be on our time or as fast as we want it to be, but it will be great timing when we get there.
At this moment, I want to learn how to take one step at a time. I want to 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒, 𝑟𝑒𝑙𝑎𝑥, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑦 life. I am tired of wanting to rush things knowing that I am not ready to step forward into my destiny. I still have to take the time out to seek God, to trust Him, to show him that I will not give up on him, and to fully believe that He will get me to my destination when He knows the time is right.
Over the month, I have grown tired of being who I am. Sometimes forgetting that there is a reason for a season. Seasons are always changing and this season I am in will change and not last forever. When adversity strikes in our life and causes us to step back, we lose ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 and forget about God’s 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒 & how 𝐺𝑅𝐴𝑇𝐸𝐹𝑈𝐿 we should be for his 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒, 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑠. I want to take the right amount of steps needed to reach my destination, allowing God to guide those footsteps in the right direction.
Believe that God will get you to where you need and want to be in life. If we trust in Him, he will see us through. I believe that every season is temporary but also a season of 𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑠, 𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠𝑡, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑐𝑒. All of what I am learning and understanding from my season. It is okay to take steps back but when it is time to step forward, just remember to take 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ 𝐺𝑜𝑑 𝑔𝑢𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛.