Well, hello there! Happy New Year to all of you! It has been over a month since I posted a blog. The month of December was full of pruning for me. God really dealt with me about letting go and must I say, when God tells you to let something go, do it! He will make it hard for you when you do not obey His word.
For starters, I wanted to say that this year will make year two of me blogging and I am so grateful for those who read my blog and I pray you will continue to grow from it just as I have. Well, like the pastors do every year they always have a message they would like their members to reflect on for the year. In 2020 my message was “Clear Vision”, 2021 it was “A Year of Mission” and this year it’s “Changing Her Story.” God gave me this message in November right before I was about to take a nap and He spoke to me about being more intimate with my audience. Most of my audience consists of women and yes shoutout to the males who read my blog too lol. But my purpose has always been to reach the young and old generation of women. I talked to a few subscribers and one of them brought up the idea of reaching those who do not know God. Of course, I thought on it and I prayed, and I asked God how am I supposed to do that and that’s when He gave me the message of “Changing Her Story.”
This message is for believers and non-believers that YOU can change your story. Some of us walk around with this chip on our shoulders because of something that happened in the past. One thing I know is that God is the only one who can judge me. Yes, people will judge you, put you down, talk about you, but it shouldn’t matter what they say about you. No one is better than the next and we all have things that we are not proud of.
Since I am being intimate here, I wanted to share something with you that most Christians do not like to talk about. And that’s SEX. Yes, SEX! It’s okay, even God talks about it in His word. Well, the reason I am bringing it up is because that is something I have struggled with for the past two years. I lost my virginity at the age of 17 because I thought my boyfriend would break up with me if I did not do it with him. I felt pressured and I was not ready, but I did it. And you know, once it is gone, it’s gone forever and there is nothing you can do about it. Well, when my parents were both sick and in 2018 my dad passed. That’s when I really had the urge to have sex because I felt lonely, and I wanted to fill a void. Well, right before my mom passed in 2019, she said, “Miranda, God is going to deliver you from that sexual sin.” And when she said that my eyes were so big! I thought to myself, “God, you told my mama my business.” If I am being honest with myself there is nothing a mother does not know about her child, she may not speak on it, but honey, she KNOWS! Well, I did not say much to my mom after she said that because I was lost for words. Like what can you say after a moment like that?
It was 2020 and that night with my mom kept replaying in my head. I knew having sex before marriage was wrong, but I did it to suppress my feelings of missing my parents and I wanted to feel WANTED. I had this selfish spirit that my parents just left me all alone and that God was wrong for taking them away from me. I knew I was not much of a drinker and a smoker, although I did do that for some time thinking the pain would go away, but it didn’t. So, I ran to sex, and it really became an escape for me. I felt that I needed it just to get by until God convicted me of that sin.
In 2021 is when I stopped, I won’t say when but know that no sinful desire is worth more than you are. I say that because, during those years I felt worthless and because of that, guys really took advantage of me because they noticed how vulnerable I was after losing my parents. I never saw my worth, I wasn’t confident in myself, and I just did not care about myself anymore. But it came a time where God made me choose between my sin or my relationship with Him. I chose myself and I chose my relationship with God. Over the months I have been more confident in myself than I have ever been in my life. The self-love is REAL, and I love it. I finally see my worth and when you see your worth, that’s when others see it too.
It’s now 2022 and the year of “Changing Her Story” your story may not be like mine and that’s okay! But I am sure that this is the year that God wants you to know your value and your worth. Surround yourself with people who want to see you grow and they too see your worth. God wants you to grow in Him, He wants you to use that gift, and for you to walk in your purpose with CONFIDENCE. Pick your crown up, fix your posture, and stand boldly in your walk with Christ, sis. Your time is now to gain back what was stolen from you. Don’t let your past, your mistakes, or your guilt stop you from changing your story. I pray that this year will bring you peace, understanding, strength, intentional faith, and courage to CHANGE YOUR STORY. I believe in you and God does too. Thank you for being here with me during this journey, I know that it is not by mistake that you are here.
Scriptures to reflect on: Romans 12:1-2, Ephesians 4:22-24, Isaiah 43:18-19, 1 John 1:9, Revelation 21:5, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Deuteronomy 31:6
P.S. – Changing Her Story T-Shirt will be out January 17, 2022!